RCVRY

2007

1. Distress Signal
2. The Space Between Living & Dying
3. Hypocrisy #785
4. Study In F
5. Daylight
6. Recovery
7. Darkest Night
8. First Love
9. Born Again
10. Freight Train
11. The Curse
12. Hand Of God

Distress Signal

(major against minor / breaking the glass case / where are you?)
words and music: Casella

Brother I can't do this anymore
Your silence is killing me
Hiding major against minor chords
You disappear right in front of me

And how am I supposed to take it?
I'm already on my knees
And suspended in the distance
Between grace and gravity

Overcome by shadows of ourselves
Disguising our reflection
We could take the time to find our way
Across this disconnection

Because how are we gonna make it
If we both refuse to see
That we can't go on erasing over
Every sad thing?

I want to trust you but you've lost all control
(Where are you?)
Nobody holds you like the hand of God

The Space Between Living & Dying

words and music: Casella

Well I read the note you left me
Love is stronger than the ways we say goodbye
You moved so fast I could not keep up
So I decided not to even try

Everywhere I'm looking things are passing away
You and I we die a little every day
That's one thing we know for sure
One thing we know for sure
I've been locked out and frozen-up in solid pursuit
But it never really got me any closer to you
So I'm ready for a change

Gotta cut through all the static
Straight into the the heart of what I know is real
Get a handle on the difference
Between what I know is true and what I feel

And it's never a whisper
It's always a shout
And it's never a whisper
It's always a shout (every change, change, change)
And it's never a whisper
It's always a shout

Hypocrisy #785

words and music: Casella & Brown

We better pick up the pieces
Feels like we're losing control
To see the truth when it's naked
Just throws us out in the cold
I could make you a promise
Look you straight in the eye
But you know I find it so easy
To trade the truth for a lie, sometimes

Do as I say, not as I do to you
I'll only let you down when we're the only ones around
What's in your blood? What's in the air you breathe?
There's more than me and you choking on the golden rule

I could I tell you I love you
You'd say you've heard it before
It feels a lot like the last time
Always the same four chords
And though I know I'm a failure
Still I just have to believe
Somewhere someone's gonna show me
Just what this honesty needs

Do as I say, not as I do to you
I'll only let you down when we're the only ones around
What's in your blood? What's on your tv screen?
There's more than me and you choking on the golden rule

We're all politicians and TV preachers...
Someone save us from ourselves

Study in F

words and music: Casella

guitar - Jeremy Casella
indian wedding drum - Todd Bragg

Daylight

words and music: Casella

Daylight
Your love is like daylight
Your love is like a sharp knife that cuts through all the pain

I heard every rumor but I had to see for sure
How could I know? How could I know?
I stumbled down the boulevard of some back alley road
Where could I go? Where could I go?

Muddy my eyes and show me I was blind
Where do you go? Where do you go?
A hundred hidden spaces still you left me so exposed
Where could I go? Where could I go?

And I don't really understand
Why you bother with the second hand
It's a mystery to me and you only reveal it in time
Time...where does it go?

Recovery

words and music: Casella

Faith, hope - a melody with no words
Is making its way through these dark times
Echoes the sound that you heard
In the autumn of desire
In the ashes of the innocence fires

No use closing your eyes to remember
What you wear in your bruises and scars
All these memories hold a reflection
Of the distance you've traveled so far
From a boy full of dreams in Pennsylvania
To a man with his wife in Tennessee
So much more than the sum of your longings
Are the good and the bad - all this beauty and tragedy

No one told you that faith would come easy
No one promised the way would be clear
Turn the ground in the fields of your story
While you're sowing the seed of your tears
Under skies wide and blue as the ocean
Make your peace with your own history
So much more than the sum of your longings
Are the good and the bad - all this beauty and tragedy

Put your sorrows in the ground
All the broken pieces wrapped up in shadows of places and people you've known
Weeping shapes and sounds all strung together like a crown
Lead a heart out of stone with a melody making you new

Darkest Night

words and music: Casella

I know that face, I know that smile
Though I haven't seen it in a little while
Through your restless eyes and your heavy heart
Well it's been awhile

Just down the road, a fifteen minute drive
Where it's another day and it's another mile
And you've come so far just to lie so still
By your father's side

When you're all alone and you're counted out
When you're swallowed up inside the shadow of a doubt
With your faith worn thin as your sorrows rise
And you're forced to find the words to say your last goodbye

Follow the truth or follow your heart
Either way you find it's pulling you apart
There's a silent ache that just won't back down
On your darkest night

No easy answers here, it's such an awful mess
You only question more and more the deeper that you get
All that your eyes can see is the pouring rain

But our love burns brighter than this dark cloud

Your tears will be my tears
Your tears, love, will be my tears
On the darkest night

First Love

words and music: Casella & Brown

You run with the wind in your face
You stand like a child of grace
And this blood on your hands
Is the wine on your lips
From whose body you've broken
And betrayed with a kiss

We live in a world that we stole
Just like thirty silver pieces we've bought and sold
So when you dream at night of what you love the most
Do you find yourself haunted by the Holy Ghost?
Because I swear I heard a whisper telling me what's right
Saying we're both sinners baby and I'm no Jesus Christ

Is it ever too late to learn what the truth is worth?
Are we too far gone to return to what we loved first?
Because I want to go back to the place that I started before
I can see through the gate but I can't take the heat of the sword

Born Again

words and music: Casella

I never thought too much about it
It didn't seem like it should matter all those years ago
It was buried under Florida sand
And frozen under Pennsylvania snow
I was fine to leave it all undone
Until I looked in the eyes of my own son
And everything was born again...

Promises get broken
Still too young to know the difference
Oh but time would tell
What was lost in all those silent years
Uncovered in some secret fear I've known
Facing the past to understand
My father's voice, my mother's hand
And everything is born again...

What does it mean to give and live and lose and win
Then end up dying to preserve a vow you made?
Sometimes it helps to name what marks you most of all
The things that shape your deepest places
And I'm not taking sides
I just think it's sad that's all
That's all

Freight Train

words and music: Casella

Darlin' times are changing
Faster than we know
Down the tracks we're racing
Closer to our home

And when that freight train came barrelling through
It was pushing us forward and pulling us loose
From all we thought that we needed
And there was nothing left but me and you

There we stood together
Down on Jackson Square
With a diamond ring forever
And flowers in your hair

And oh that freight train came barrelling through
It was pushing us forward and it was pulling us loose
From all we thought that we needed
And there was nothing left but me and you

The Curse

words and music: Casella

Oh my love, I feel naked and ashamed
Does my savior even know my name?
Have I been left by the side of the road?
With an empty song to sing, am I standing on my own?

I've got an ache inside, I've got a sadness I can't kill
I think it's one part pride, one part works that never will
I'm lonely like Adam and I'm angry like Cain
Does my savior even know my name?

Hand of God

words and music: Casella

She's not the kind of girl
Who lies and tells you nothing's wrong
She'll open up her hand
And heal you with her holy song

She's the long forgotten secret seldom told
She's the fire in your blood that's burning
Aching while you're growing old

She's the truth
Wrapped up in tears
She's the beauty
For all your fear
And she sings, nobody holds you like the hand of God

I was cold and desperate for her love
Tossed in the storm that living brings
I didn't know my name
Until she gave me shelter in her wings

Where are you?
Where are you?
Where are you now?

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The Message: Psalms

2006

Last Chance

words & music: Casella
©2005 Saint & Pilgrim Song / admin. by The Loving Company

I am alone in fear
Entrenched by death I'm stranded here
There is no sun up in my sky
Pounded by your every wave your anger is a silent cage
People say your love has passed me by

But I'm standing my ground though I'm living out on the edge of hell
Have I been swallowed by the night?
For crying out loud you're the king of the angels in the sky
And I'm feeling your rage at every side

Do my words even matter at all? Do you still hear me when I call?
Are you as deaf as I am blind?
I'm all alone with the trouble I'm in
The darkness is my closest friend
Even my love left me behind

You are my last chance through the fire and the falling rain
You are my last chance and when I'm lost you're my way back again

10,000 Angels

2004

1. Grace
2. Cast Away Stones
3. Love That Will Not
4. At Thy Feet I Fall
5. Carry Me Home
6. Dust To Glory

Grace

words and music: Casella

In the innocence fires and silent voices
Parading in your head
Yeah, some you'll fight and some you're kissing up
So you can be a better man

Grace, she calls you by your name
She whispers of a place where living waters flow

Your fears have sown such desperation
I can see it in your thirsty eyes
In the valley of your own decision
Let go fall and try

Grace, you've got to listen for the sound
Calling out your name, spring up through the underground
Grace, where living waters flow

How many dead end roads have led you to the place you stand?

Cast Away Stones

words and music: Casella

I'm trying to remember the words
The words that you would say
As in heaven on the earth
That I would never pass away
I remember something that you said
Trespass and daily bread

My life with every passing hour
My vapor in the wind
Is getting closer to the place
Where I end and you begin

Thy kingdom come
Thy kingdom cast away
Thy kingdom cast away stones

I've had my days of building up
These castle walls of stone
I sit so proudly on display
Upon my rotting throne
When this gospel brings to me
Ears to hear and eyes to see

This work of God, no work of man
My only hope, my only life
Has given me a place to stand
Has made me love what I despised

Love That Will Not Let Me Go

Words: Jeremy Casella & Scott Brown
Music: Jeremy Casella

Born with a heart
That was clinched like a fist
It didn't last long
My age of innocence
From my very first step
It was away from your arms
Bound and determined to run so far

From the love that will not let me go
Love that will not let me go
From the love that will not let me go
Love that will not let me go

It was a dark and crooked path
I was running down
Until ten-thousand angels came to turn me around
And I'll shout it from the mountain tops
I’ll sing a million songs
To tell you of the mystery that's leading me along

This life is like a lesson
Every day is teaching me
Though nothing goes unnoticed
My eyes may never see
Now in the mirror so dimly
But one day face to face
The glory and the mercy
That will never fade away

At Thy Feet I Fall

words: William Cowper (1779)
music: Jeremy Casella

God of my life to thee I call
Afflicted at thy feet I fall
And though the water floods prevail
Leave not my trembling heart to fail
Friend to the friendless and the faint
Where should I lodge my deep complaint?
Where but with thee, whose open door invites the helpless and the poor?

God of my life to thee I call
Afflicted at thy feet I fall

Does every mourner plead with thee
And thou refuse the mourner's plea?
Does not thy word still fixed remain
That none should seek thy face in vain?
It were a grief I could not bear
Does thou not hear and answer prayer?
A prayer hearing answering God supports me under every load...

God of my life to thee I call
Afflicted at thy feet I fall

Fair is the lot that's cast for me
I have an advocate with thee
They whom the world caresses most
Have no such privilege to boast
Poor though I am despised, forgot
Yet God, my God, forgets me not
And He is safe and must succeed for whom the Lord vow safe to plead...

Carry Me Home

Words: Jeremy Casella
Music: Jeremy Casella & Cason Cooley

I am just a stranger
In this cemetery town
Living in the shadows
Of the sorrow I lay down

And I remember that look in your eyes
I knew that you saw me right through my disguise
You come shatter the silence and you drown out the lies
To carry me home

A room within a mansion
I'm sleep outside your door
With all the other orphans
With the weary and the worn
I am so easily persuaded

In the valley and the shadow
on the road that leads to you
you remind me of what's sacred
you remind me of what's true
So clearly I remember
I believe I can recall
What is written on your hands
And it will be after all

Dust To Glory

Words: Jeremy Casella & Scott Brown
Music: Jeremy Casella

Carry me, O breath of God
From these shores of sin and shame
Come restore me, dust to glory
All I have is you

Walk with me lest I should fall
Hold me to that narrow road
Come restore me, dust to glory
All I need is you
All I need is you

Here among the sons of men whose words
Like spears and arrows fly
You are my shield of faith
I will not be afraid

Shepherd me O Lamb of God
Through these valleys lead me home
Come restore me, dust to glory
All I have is you
All I have is you

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Faith & Heartache

2002

1. Speak and All my Soul is Peace
2. Walking On Water
3. Best Intentions
4. Lazarus
5. Hills of Light
6. Place Your Bets
7. Psalm 62
8. Not Forgotten
9. The Purchase
10. Guide Me O Thou Great Jehovah

Speak and All my Soul is Peace

words: Charles Wesley (1762)
music: Jeremy Casella

Calmer of my troubled heart
Bid my unbelief depart
Speak and all my sorrows cease
Speak and all my soul is peace

Comfort me whenever I mourn
With the hope of Thy return
And till/until I thy glory see
Help me to believe in thee

Walking On Water

words/music: Casella

There's a mystery to living
There's a rhythm to your faith
When you're feeling like a pilgrim
When you're feeling like a saint

Midst this darkness all around you
In your flesh and in your bone
Still a light is there that's shining
In the the gallows of your soul

oh-it feels just like dying
oh-it feels just like flying
or walking on water

There's a memory that flickers
Like a dream that reoccurs
Of the things we have not spoken
How we've forgotten who we were

And I'm so scared to wake up
For the things that I might see
Some reflection in the mirror
of the man I could not be

I'm fixing my eyes...

Best Intentions

words/music: Casella

I had the best intentions
I had the best intentions of loving you
I had the best intentions
I made my best laid plans to follow through

But it was'nt long before
I'd come crashing through your door
Pushing me just a little bit more further from you

There is no real distinction
There is no difference between now and then
I know some time has passed
But I fear I'm just the same old fool I was back then

Ain't that just the way it goes
You hurt the ones you love the most
you wind up empty like a ghost
All hallow and dry

Would someone tell me what it's worth
When you just can't it work
Was I a blessing or a curse
In your life

In the burning of human desire
Where there's smoke there oughta be a fire
And I just can't be climbing any higher
Above all the haze
That's blocking our way

I had the best intentions, I had the best intentions of loving you
Of loving you, of loving you.

Lazarus

lyric: Brown/Casella
music: Casella

Lazarus lay silent, slipping towards his grave
Helplessly his sisters, stood broken by his pain
Their last hope was a message, bound up in solemn prayer
Jesus please come quickly, our brother needs you here

Lazarus lay dying, fighting for every breath
But Jesus said this sickness is not unto death
He said, "glory to the Father and glory to the Son
My Lazarus is sleeping, but I will wake him up"

Mary and Martha were grieving
With the hour glass slipping away
But with Jesus, His timing is everything
So they led Him to the mouth of the grave

The Son of man was weeping, as the blood and water flowed
The life and resurrection cried loose and let him go
And I was just like Lazarus, silent in my grave
Until Jesus came and found me, and rolled the stone away

Hills of Light

words: Isaac Watts (1709)
music: Casella

My best-beloved keeps His throne
On hills of light, in worlds unknown
But He descends and shows His face
In the bright gardens of His grace

He has engrossed my warmest love
No earthly charms my soul can move
I have a mansion in His heart
Nor death nor hell shall make us part

Oh, may my spirit daily rise
On wings of faith above the skies
Till death shall make my last remove
To dwell for ever with my love

Place Your Bets

words/music: Casella

Step right up
Lay down a dollar
Heart on your sleeve
Like any other man would try
You play to win
So place your bets

The joke's on you
So go tell your mother
She raised a fool
Or just a martyr for a cause
Of dreamers and thieves

and all of this heartache and all of this pain
better be good for something more than feeling this way
so i'm rolling the dice
I'm spinning the wheel
I'm placing my bets on a whole 'nother deal

Opened my eyes
I saw the reflection
of the thin gray line
between the dreaming and what's real
was all this pain just good for nothing

the sun will rise
again tomorrow
I'm gonna shake
this death and sorrow to the ground
I'll cut my losses but I'm not skipping town

Psalm 62

words/music: Casella & Brown

He alone is my rock and my salvation
He is my fortress
I won't be shaken
He alone is my rock and my salvation
He is my fortress
I won't be shaken

Find rest O my soul
In God alone
In God Alone

He alone is refuge and my glory
My rock of strength
He goes before me
He alone is refuge and my glory
My rock of strength
He goes before me

He alone is my rock and my salvation
He is my fortress
I won't be shaken
He alone is refuge and my glory
My rock of strength
He goes before me

Not Forgotten

words/music: Casella

oh one whole year of asking why
like angels falling from the sky
we're forced to walk through Holy fire
we seek to hold it in
the silence is our closest friend
but even the silence begs the questions why

Not forgotton, never forgotten

some kind of evil here
is playing on our deepest fears
words are a failure for the things we've seen
grasping for answers in the wreckage and the pain we feel
through the ashes and the twisted steel

justice is burning in the eyes of a holy God

I believe in the Father and the kingdom come
and I place my faith in His only Son
I trust that He has overcome
and that He has not forgotten
Not forgotten
He is not silent
They are not forgotten

The Purchase

words/music: Casella & Brown

It's bloody and brutal, this Gospel's death of Christ
But the truth is no one's healed apart from His stripes
And I am not compelled to make it pleasing to the eye
Because the value of the purchase is measured in the price

It is finished it is final, His work upon the cross
One perfect act of mercy saves the dying and the lost
Yet daily still we labor to add and take away
Not trusting in the riches and the power of His grace

Oh, it's not just my sin that keeps me from walking the straight and the narrow
Oh, it's not just my sin but my goodness that keeps me from Him
It's my goodness that keeps me from Him

It's hallowed and heroic, our rescue from the fire
And scarcely can we fathom the ransome we required
To learn its offered freely makes it hard to reconcile
Because the value of the purchase is measured in the price

Guide Me O Thou Great Jehovah

words: William Williams (1773)
music: Jeremy Casella

Guide Me O, Thou Great Jehovah
Pilgrim through this barren land
I am weak but thou art mighty
Hold me with thy powerful hand

Bread of heaven
Feed me now and evermore
Bread of heaven
Feed me now and evermore

Open now the crystal fountain
Whence the healing waters flow
Let the fiery cloudy pillar
Lead me all my journey through

Strong deliverer
Be thou still my strength and shield
Strong deliverer
Be thou still my strength and shield

When I tread the verge of Jordan
Bid my anxious fears subside
Death of death and hell's destruction
Land me safe on Canaan's side

Songs of praises
I will ever give to thee
Songs of praises
I will ever give to thee

Oh, to finally say goodbye
Bid my anxious fears, bid my anxious fears
Land me safe on Canaan's side
Bid my anxious fears, bid my anxious fears goodbye

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